A large butterfly flickered outside my window. This is the first day of Autumn and quite beautiful. I reluctantly left my house and drove to a friend's coffee shop in town, but, finding he had yet to open, I could not wait 15 minutes. I returned back here to my idyllic place of residence. I am certain no present existing image of heaven, be it Christian, Islamic, or Buddhistic could ever work for me. I need stimulation and heaven is just too perfect.
My present dilemma is:
I need to leave this complacent safety zone and find 'my thing'.
Something that would draw out all my creative juices... and allow me to again feel fully engaged.